4-20-09

I do and don’t understand why I have such a hard time understanding things,
learning,
I’m so focused on format b/c:
- I have to understand the overall picture. I guess that makes sense why you’re suppose to have a summary and then talk. Talk about what you’re going to talk about and then talk about it.
- I don’t like reading what I’m talking about. I want to see it and know

Problem > explanation > reason > solution

I don’t study for tests
I don’t understand why not
- When u
Why do other people learn so quickly?
Do they focus on the right stuff?

After our presentation I felt like crap so I’m going to make recommendations on how to handle group projects:
- Everyone research the subject and meet with basic knowledge.
- Figure out what is required by the professor
- Make an outline of the ‘finished’ product
- As a group, go though it and fill in your ideas, questions, concerns, what you think is important, what needs backup
- Divide work into sections (?should this be based on work load or sections that don’t overlap?)
- Assign sections to each person based on what they feel they would do the best at.

- Figure out the main thoughts as a group, and individually investigate different specific parts
- Give a summary of what you’ve learned, and what you think are the main points (if any different than previously decided)
- Ask any questions

Advise to myself on How to study better and comprehend stuff?
- Learn a new concept, apply it to now, & apply it to how you could use it to your advantage in the marketing field
- Teaching how to get more business is not as simple as how to program your remote.
- I want to make an outline so it’s like a quick reference back, and a follow your needed path. Like the puzzles/quizzes we had. “would you want to go on a date to the movies or adventure park?” Your dream guy is…
- They don’t teach us certain things (I had this thought during the retail test…) Some things they teach us are more opinion… Some are not a straight path though, some are
- ANSWER BASIC QUESTIONS!!!!!!
1. WHO is Bernard Madoff
2. WHERE is he today?
3. HOW did he get where he is today
4. HOW do

4-17-09

4-17-09
p.s. also started writing in the notebook (colorful)

I want to be on my own.
Be adventurous.
Do something I wouldn’t normally do.

Even though we just had a fight… scratch that. There was no fight. He got mad (!eXpLaiN!!)
I want the carefree life I deserve and never had.

I thought that would be achieved when I moved out and in with Daniel.
What do I do now?
Do I really want to move out?
Do I really think I’ll end up with Daniel?
No. we’re too different. We may want the same thing, but diff timing/ways to get there.
Do I love him?
yes.
Do I want to live alone?
Do I want to live with a roommate?

I think it’s a parent’s responsibility to raise their children so they know the value of money, how much they have, what they have to do to get what they want/ continue to get what they want…

After tonight, if Daniel and I are going to stay together:
-things need to change –he needs to know –something else…
-I think about moving out
-I could get an efficiency and take over the lease (So there wouldn’t be any harm to his credit!!!)
-It would give me a chance to be by myself and grow into my own

Balancing work & school & life

School:
It's funny how I've never been a big "school" person.
-My #1 reason for going to college was b/c I didn't know what I wanted to do.
-I often wonder if I'm benefiting from school.
-I blame school for a lot of the stuff I don't know or understand.... but I think you're suppose to learn a lot on your own. & if thats true, how do you know what you will or wont

Work:
I love it, I normally get there late but I always work later! I'm confused a lot of the time, but I'm starting to understand more. Sometimes I don't retain a lot of information but it's bc I'm more concerned with getting the work done fast, rather than knowing why and how this does that.

At the moment, I'm watching my show Privileged in the bedroom. Daniel's watching whatever on the couch. His hips and legs hurt. I feel bad, but he just came in here talkin bout how ppl want movies and he's so tired... When is he going to get a job??
What holds me back from getting everything I've wanted??
I need to think about what I want & how I can get there...

Everyone is different, some ppl want their life to go in a certain order, and some don't care
Education, Career, Family, House,

I thought more about the order.
I want to be in love, have a career, get a house, get married, have kids
I think Daniel knows I want to finish school b4 anything so in his mind, out of sight, out of mind, buT, in my mind, I see him & wonder if this is the guy for me; someone who will eventually settle down.

Short Term: Want list:
Decorate apt into a place that reflects me. Stop using Daniel as an excuse b/c it'd be too girly or something!!!
Post Pictures Next!

Wow.. Kinda surprised I'm doing this... I've always had either a notebook, word document diary, or random scraps of paper that i wrote down everything I wanted to say but couldn't.
uLtimateLY~ I'm a weird person.
to describe me:
-I'm a senior at University of Houston Business School!!! (marketing degree)
-I'm so scared of graduating
-I still don't know "what I'm going to be when I grow up"
-I work at an Oil company in the accounting department
-I've been getting scared lately that I'm not really doing my best

-I live with my boyfriend
-I moved out once for a month
-I'm just waiting for the next time
-I do love him

-I like to drink
-I take prozac & adderall but drinking can be a good fix
-I hate saying that tho!!! It's not like that

-I use to smoke years ago, and the past couple times, I've learned a couple new things about myself
-It's kinda freaked me out.
Things i've thought:

*I hate everything I've become
*I think about money too much
*I've probably splurged on myself 2x in the past year

I want to be able to understand things and be happy!

--also, I want to put all my pictures of random things that make me happy together!!